I am going to be in another magazine - that will be my 4th this year. I love getting published - you should see the size of my ego when I get a magazine with one of my pics in it - it can be pretty embarrassing in hindsight. I show everyone. I even made my daughter take it to school to show for news day (there was a pic of herself as a fairy in it).
Of course, I have only been paid from one of these magazines- it is all an illusion of success isn't it? I keep wondering when it will translate into real money - probably never. BLAH. So I will have a nice library of published work, and I still won't have the money to buy any film. I am the only photographer I know who never has a stock of film on hand - well, actually, I am the only photographer I know who doesn't work with a digital camera. Can't afford one anyway.

I should stop whinging now I think.
The mag is called Moonshadows.

Well it is official - I am going to be providing the images for Phil Erklens music project. Eleven images in all - I am so excited - we are talking about trolls and ogres and dwarves and elves and dragons and castles oh my! I can't wait to get started. Now this is a dream project because there is no rush, all in my own time and only when the inspiration hits me. The orchestration is not quite finished yet, so I am under no pressure. Also, Phil PAYS - yes!!!! and he agreed to my figure and also to any extras over and above my fee for the manipulation - like costuming and makeup. This guy is an absolute godsend. What fun to do some "beautiful ugly" creatures instead of just the pretty faeries I normally do.

Where am I going to find some dwarves???? I'm off to look at prosthetic noses and chins.

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It seems unbelievable that for the very first time in my life I have a proper job - bizarre isn't it!!! I am 39 years old and I have never worked 9-5 in my life. I gotta say - it is killing me. I mean, I roll out of bed, stumble to the bus, work work work, come home, too tired to do anything - and then the day is over. Geez - how can people live this way?
Hey, don't get me wrong, I do love this job - I am working in a photo gallery doing all thier photoshop work on customer photos. This gallery is fabulous - they print on massive canvases with their Epson 9800. What a beautiful machine that is! Best part of the job is I get to print my own work too, and sell it through the gallery - so really I should not be complaining should I? I can't wait to see my fairies on a really huge canvas!! And at last I have a retail outlet in a well-lit dedicated space.
I only am afraid that my fairies will be neglected as more of my energy goes into working for others, and I have come too far to turn my back on them now.

OK - I've got my live journal, but I can't figure out how to use it. Feeling very very annoyed and confused with this whole thing.